Music that I’ve made acts as contextual timestamps, denoting specific moods and emotions at specific times in my life. With eight years of music experience behind me, the songs I’ve made symbolize the overwhelming change, mentally and stylistically, that I’ve gone through. As I continue to evolve my sound and genre, I become nostalgic for what my music used to sound like. Many times, I’ve obsessed over reconstructing that past sound – only to realize I can never return to it.
I wanted to make a piece that embodies the fears, failures, and hopes that come with stylistic, organic change, both visually and auditorily. My thesis acts as a personal message to myself: a depiction of being forced to move forward with a process, the failures that come with that change and the beauty of leaving something different in its place.